Posted by Raju (220.127.116.11) on June 20, 2000 at 18:56:21:
In Reply to: Faltering posted by Otter28 on June 16, 2000 at 05:47:37:
I am only 23 yrs old and I am buddhist from my birth, but I don't know much about the buddha Dharma. I always come in this chat and read what other people are talking.I really like this chat site,and I am also trying to learn about Buddhism. when I was back in Nepal, I saw some monks who were ordain when they were young. They never know what is the actual life of the people who are not monk. They only see the side which looks good, like having a girl friend, driving nice car, wearing nice cloth. They never see the opposite side which is full of headache and suffering. Because they never have any experiences. Some of them left the monastry and get married. Most of ex-monks I know later regret and they said "I hope I had never left the monk life. My monk life was very peaceful." May be your teacher have also same problem.
I am just telling you what I saw.
: I have practicaly abandoned my dharma practice lately because I was very hurt by one of my teachers. He recently disrobed, and left our center to pursue all the wordly pleasures that he had given up while he was ordained. It has left me hurt and confused, and I have found that my practice is now full of questions. How could he have been willing to commit his life to the bodhisattva path, and then just give up? What happened to all of his realizations? How can something be so true one day, and just disappear the next? I would appreciate anyone's advice on how I can make my practice sincere again. I miss it so much. Thank you for being out there!
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