Posted by Otter28 (18.104.22.168) on June 21, 2000 at 08:59:16:
In Reply to: An instant death posted by Society-Outcast on June 20, 2000 at 01:03:19:
Hello Instant Death:
You are in a dangerous state of mind that can be seen clearly if only you will meditate. Do not give up. Watch what your mind is doing as you sit very quietly. Do not be attracted or repelled by any thought. Do not follow any thought. Just watch them as they arise, and sink down again with nowhere to go. Eventually, you will realize that you are in control of the nightmare that appears to be your world right now. Monks were not born so peaceful (far from it-how chaotic birth must be for all of us!). In fact, it is hard work to control your mind all the time-but what joyful work!
With love and compassion, Otter
P.S. Thank you all for your wisdom concerning my message: Faltering
: Dear ???
: At last,
: At last I have what I've found what I've been searching for all these years. Today I would like to share with you some of my feelings and thoughts. In this life, all I could find was the pain, the suffering that resides inside of me for so long, today I would like to share part of what is most concerns me. All these times, I have often think of death (suicide) thinking of how I would end this life as soon as possible, because I find no contentment, no joy in this life. I had so many bad feelings and thoughts about my life, and don't know who I should talk to or share with, so I bore it painfully and secretly. All the time, I only feel pain, loneliness, and sadness, frustrated, and desperated to live another day, I am so desperated that only death would ease my mind. I can no longer feel the joy, the light of this world, I don't know what I should do, I wanted it so much that a peace and a quiet life would suits me better. I often think that if I die now, in the afterlife, I would reincarnate and becomes a little monk, growing up in a monastery, a temple or wherever those monks lived. I yearn for a quiet, neat and beautiful pagoda or temple, where there is Buddha preaching and a life of vegeterian, where there is no noise, where there is birds chirping, sunshine all the time, and I would hear the sound of tapping the bell, where I would get away from society and anything that deals with pain and suffering. There, I would find my true contentment, and hoping to become an Enlightment, find a way to get out of death, pain, sickness, old and everything that caused human to reborn again in this world. Please give me some advice, I am desperate and if only I got a strong will to make up my mind now and lead a life as a monk.
: Best wish,
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